“I Don’t Want to Be This” Lyrics

Original Release: November 2, 2018

1.  Fires Were Started
2.  Every Time
3.  I Can’t Help You
4.  Bored
5.  Inside This House
6.  Teach Me
7.  Cruel
8.  Warning Shot
9.  It’s Not the End of an Era (It’s Just The End)

Every Time

Oh baby, you don’t seem to get it 
I won’t be coming round just to see if you will 
And every little time that you show up in rags 
I put an extra lock on my windowsill 

Oh mama, can’t you hear your own voice? 
You keep saying that you’ve changed but then you’re holding a gun 
Once in every while you take a little more care 
To make sure that I won’t ever end up with her

—–

I Can’t Help You

You broke my heart again 
Seems like you can’t help but do that 
I woke beside you in bed 
Just to find you had turned back 

I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know how to love someone 
I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know what you want 

So you can call me again 
But it still hasn’t dawned on you 
That when you throw me away 
There’s nothing that I have to do 

I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know how to love someone 
I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know what you want

—–

Bored

I tried to be on board 
And act like I saw just what it was 
What is about love that can’t be reasoned away? 
All of those things they might become if you got out of the way 

And I saw just what it was 

Try to see me once more 
You act like you’ve finally had enough 
It’s time to cough it up 
You’re bored 

Fell short if the goal was ‘to change’ 
Never met what couldn’t be explained 
She put on her coat as she heads for the car 
The frost upon the glass just like a broken heart 

And I saw just what it was 

Try to see me once more 
You act like you’ve finally had enough 
It’s time to cough it up 
You’re bored

—–

Inside This House

I’m sorry I’m being too loud 
I can turn it off 
I’m sorry I tried to kiss your mouth 
I can turn it off 

I wrote a new song today 
Yeah, I can turn it off 
Cleaned up and dinner’s on it’s way 
I can turn it off 

Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 

I might go out this week 
But I can keep it down 
Even though you and I don’t speak 
Yeah, I can keep it down 

Leave the house so quietly 
Yeah, we keep it down 
You resent the sight of me 
You don’t keep it down 

Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house…

—–

Teach Me

I cut my teeth on you 
I didn’t need to get hurt 
You know I wanted to 

Show me what you hid 
Beneath your bangs and your dress 
Show me what you did 

You wanna teach me 
Show me the ropes 
Feel the pressure getting tight 
Wrapped around my throat 

I let you bite my lip 
You’re gonna eat me alive, girl 
Bit by bit 

You’re my favorite degree 
So tear the dial off the wall 
And cut your teeth on me 

You wanna teach me 
Show me the ropes 
Feel the pressure getting tight 
Wrapped around my throat 

You wanna teach me 
Show me something new 
Yeah I said I haven’t tried before 
Just never with you 

You wanna teach me

—–

Cruel

I’ve been saying for days 
Complicated isn’t worth that now 
I know what I did 
Was it wrong to wanna look so bad? 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
I wasn’t supposed to come and break your heart 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
This piece of shit will never work that hard 

Blank stare 
I can’t explain myself 
I just did it to feel something 
Cruel 

Putting cardboard on windows 
Sleep till noon and keep the sunlight out 
I see my phone lighting up 
I must have done something when I blacked out 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
I’m not the thing you should be looking for 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
But we both keep coming back for more 

Blank stare 
I can’t explain myself 
I just did it to feel something 
Cruel

—–

Warning Shot

I’m not waking 
My eyes won’t open up 
You get frustrated 
You say ‘that’s enough’ 

Don’t drag me out 
Into paperwork 
The lawyer can forge it 
My signature by yours 

I don’t want this 
To continue or not 
I don’t want this 
It’s a warning shot 

It’s all the same 
Sleepless nights 
Suicide and money 
Wrapped in Christmas lights 

And it’s got me angry 
Made a villain of you 
Consequence of vision 
Now what are we to do? 

I don’t want this 
To continue or not 
I don’t want this 
It’s a warning shot

—–

It’s Not The End of an Era (It’s Just the End)

Break 
Play the B-Side 
Let the single rot on the outside 

We can dance around the novelty 
Of false epiphany 
On your time 

Shake 
Rip up the low vibes 
Surfing out into low tides 

We can get down in the sea foam 
Or just stand around 
Looking dumb 

Sink 
Back into your house 
Let your own crowd bring you down 

We can hate all that we wanna be 
A false epiphany 
That keeps the sun 

It’s not the end of an era 
It’s just the end

So I have a new single and album.

On Friday, I released my new single “Teach Me” along with an accompanying video. In case you missed it, here it is.

This song is off my new album I Don’t Want to Be This, out November 2nd, 2018.

These songs are about a marriage ending and the sense of confusion that comes with that.

For a while, I debated releasing these songs at all. But now that some time has past I feel like this might be my best work yet.

November 2nd. See you along the way.

– Brian

“Golden B.C.” Lyrics

Original release: November 6, 2015

Tracklist:
1.   Back to That
2.   Failing
3.   They’re Trying to Make You a Woman
4.   Pay Dirt
5.   What They Tell Their Kids
6.   Yes I Do
7.   Greyhound
8.   Into the House
9.   Try to Wait

Lyrics:

“Back to That”

I pulled in the front, looked for my keys 
Cuz I knew that you’d be home 
Cuz I need you, I wanna feel your hand 
From the surface, down to the bone 

And I can’t believe it 
That I’m going back 
Back to that 

You’re a cancer, a tease, a plague on my house 
But I know that you’d be kind 
When there’s something you need, my phone goes wild 
With you calling me inside 

And I can’t believe it 
That I’m going back 
Back to that

——-

“Failing”

You got me breaking down 
But you knew this before 
Listen to the sound 
Of a new way to bore 

And I know 
You got me singing out 
And I know 
That you’d rather hear me shout than say “I want you” 

Sit 
Down 
Watch 
Me 

And I know 
You got me singing out 
And I know 
You’d rather hear me shout, than say “I want you”

——-

“They’re Trying to Make You a Woman”

You know its not gonna matter 
In 50 years what you’ve done 
Painting notes in a cave 
Confessing sins, ignore some 

They’re trying to make you a woman 
So brush your hair and paint your lips 
They’re trying to make you a woman 
But its easier to make a fist 

We’re all firing bullets 
Straight up into the night they’re sprung 
Standing with our heads back 
Trying to catch em on our tongue 

They’re trying to make you a woman 
So brush your hair and paint your face 
They’re trying to make you a woman 
Well to you, that seems to be the case

——-

“Pay Dirt”

Pay dirt 
Another inspiration tapped 
We cater 
To minor keys with major gaps 

Its harder 
To see the money through the trees 
For starters 
What can you do for me? 

Hey there 
You got another song to play 
Why don’t you 
Get your ass up on the stage? 

We wanna 
Tell the whole world about this 
Artist 
But gotta pay for word-of-mouth

——-

“What They Tell Their Kids”

He’s a sentence too short 
He’s a month too soon 
He called her up while wasted 
You would have laughed it off too 

This is how they met 
This is what they tell their kids 

This is what they tell kids 

I don’t know what I’m gonna do next 
I don’t know what I’m gonna do next 
I don’t know what I’m gonna do next 
So I might as well sit the fuck around 

You know its just a picture 
But don’t act like its just a date 
Cuz if you’re giving it up 
They will always be those that take 

This is what they tell kids

——-

“Yes I Do”

I know what to say 
I know what to do 
And I’m gonna walk outta there 
With a hella lot more than you 

Yes I do 

I took the raise 
I work the hours 
When the boss does a walkabout 
I give him all cuz I got the power 

Yes I do 

I got the Wilkes account 
Keeping me awake 
Did a line off my daughter’s book 
And I’m gonna be working late 

Just like you 

I know what to say 
I know what to do 
And I’m gonna walk outta there 
With a hella lot more than you 

Yes I do

——-

“Into The House”



Oh baby you’re a bridge to burn 
You got me drinking drinks from the colours to the worm 

I never once succeeded anything I’ve tried 
I’d rather play alone than risk the outside 

I didn’t know, I wasn’t supposed to know 
That you acted like that 
I didn’t learn, I wasn’t supposed to learn 
To dance 



Oh baby you’re a wagon to paint 
You got a busload of years thrown upon that face 
And the in to the house is the same as the out 
I gotta get up and leave if you’re gonna sit and pout 

You didn’t know, you didn’t wanna know 
Exactly how I felt 
You didn’t cry, you didn’t shed a tear 
When they came… 



4

——-

“Try to Wait”

I’m scared to leave these sheets 
I heard gunshots from down the street 
They said they killed another 5 
Injured 2 cops, now one’s died 

You can’t live out your lives 
Without being scared to go outside 
A brave face, another ribbon 
Regressing evolution 

All they do 
Is beat it with a clean slate 
The news will get better 
If you try to wait 

I hold my love, she holds me 
Watching broadcasts on repeat 
A brave face, a new resistance 
To the idea of coexistence 

I worry when she leaves that she won’t come home to me 

All they do 
Is beat it with a clean slate 
The news will get better 
If you try to wait 

Gonna spin it around 
And beat it with a clean slate 
It never gets better 
If you try to wait

Looking Back: ‘My Love is True (Hey Hey Hey!)’

As my catalogue grows, its easy for me to forget about songs I put out in the past.  ‘Looking Back’ will take a look at some of my previous work and talk frankly about the process of making them, things I screwed up and things I feel I got right.  Hopefully this won’t be boring.

“My Love is True (Hey Hey Hey!) – 2012 Single

This is a pretty recent track, but kind of an oddball in the catalog.  When I was working on this, my girlfriend was on a 5-month exchange in Mexico and I was trying to write something upbeat to cheer myself up.  Unfortunately, the first draft of this song sounded incredibly similar to a Beatles song and as soon as I noticed that, I had to rearrange large parts of it, or I would feel I copied them.  So, I played with the structure and ended up ripping the whole thing apart and keeping just the basic acoustic chords and rebuilding the song off of them.

I also finally go a chance to use my mandolin, which had been sitting in my closet since I bought it.  It really gave the instrumental section a big boost and I still think this song sounds phenomenal.  At the same time, this is very much a bouncy, upbeat love song that I wrote while making Just Take It, a dark and atmospheric concept record.  I knew it would have no place on the new record and I figured I might as well release it as a single, because its still a cool song.  Just the harmonica alone floors me.  🙂