“I Don’t Want to Be This” Lyrics

Original Release: November 2, 2018

1.  Fires Were Started
2.  Every Time
3.  I Can’t Help You
4.  Bored
5.  Inside This House
6.  Teach Me
7.  Cruel
8.  Warning Shot
9.  It’s Not the End of an Era (It’s Just The End)

Every Time

Oh baby, you don’t seem to get it 
I won’t be coming round just to see if you will 
And every little time that you show up in rags 
I put an extra lock on my windowsill 

Oh mama, can’t you hear your own voice? 
You keep saying that you’ve changed but then you’re holding a gun 
Once in every while you take a little more care 
To make sure that I won’t ever end up with her

—–

I Can’t Help You

You broke my heart again 
Seems like you can’t help but do that 
I woke beside you in bed 
Just to find you had turned back 

I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know how to love someone 
I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know what you want 

So you can call me again 
But it still hasn’t dawned on you 
That when you throw me away 
There’s nothing that I have to do 

I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know how to love someone 
I can’t help you, baby 
If you don’t know what you want

—–

Bored

I tried to be on board 
And act like I saw just what it was 
What is about love that can’t be reasoned away? 
All of those things they might become if you got out of the way 

And I saw just what it was 

Try to see me once more 
You act like you’ve finally had enough 
It’s time to cough it up 
You’re bored 

Fell short if the goal was ‘to change’ 
Never met what couldn’t be explained 
She put on her coat as she heads for the car 
The frost upon the glass just like a broken heart 

And I saw just what it was 

Try to see me once more 
You act like you’ve finally had enough 
It’s time to cough it up 
You’re bored

—–

Inside This House

I’m sorry I’m being too loud 
I can turn it off 
I’m sorry I tried to kiss your mouth 
I can turn it off 

I wrote a new song today 
Yeah, I can turn it off 
Cleaned up and dinner’s on it’s way 
I can turn it off 

Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 

I might go out this week 
But I can keep it down 
Even though you and I don’t speak 
Yeah, I can keep it down 

Leave the house so quietly 
Yeah, we keep it down 
You resent the sight of me 
You don’t keep it down 

Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house… 
Inside this house…

—–

Teach Me

I cut my teeth on you 
I didn’t need to get hurt 
You know I wanted to 

Show me what you hid 
Beneath your bangs and your dress 
Show me what you did 

You wanna teach me 
Show me the ropes 
Feel the pressure getting tight 
Wrapped around my throat 

I let you bite my lip 
You’re gonna eat me alive, girl 
Bit by bit 

You’re my favorite degree 
So tear the dial off the wall 
And cut your teeth on me 

You wanna teach me 
Show me the ropes 
Feel the pressure getting tight 
Wrapped around my throat 

You wanna teach me 
Show me something new 
Yeah I said I haven’t tried before 
Just never with you 

You wanna teach me

—–

Cruel

I’ve been saying for days 
Complicated isn’t worth that now 
I know what I did 
Was it wrong to wanna look so bad? 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
I wasn’t supposed to come and break your heart 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
This piece of shit will never work that hard 

Blank stare 
I can’t explain myself 
I just did it to feel something 
Cruel 

Putting cardboard on windows 
Sleep till noon and keep the sunlight out 
I see my phone lighting up 
I must have done something when I blacked out 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
I’m not the thing you should be looking for 

You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
You’re coming round (You’re coming round) 
But we both keep coming back for more 

Blank stare 
I can’t explain myself 
I just did it to feel something 
Cruel

—–

Warning Shot

I’m not waking 
My eyes won’t open up 
You get frustrated 
You say ‘that’s enough’ 

Don’t drag me out 
Into paperwork 
The lawyer can forge it 
My signature by yours 

I don’t want this 
To continue or not 
I don’t want this 
It’s a warning shot 

It’s all the same 
Sleepless nights 
Suicide and money 
Wrapped in Christmas lights 

And it’s got me angry 
Made a villain of you 
Consequence of vision 
Now what are we to do? 

I don’t want this 
To continue or not 
I don’t want this 
It’s a warning shot

—–

It’s Not The End of an Era (It’s Just the End)

Break 
Play the B-Side 
Let the single rot on the outside 

We can dance around the novelty 
Of false epiphany 
On your time 

Shake 
Rip up the low vibes 
Surfing out into low tides 

We can get down in the sea foam 
Or just stand around 
Looking dumb 

Sink 
Back into your house 
Let your own crowd bring you down 

We can hate all that we wanna be 
A false epiphany 
That keeps the sun 

It’s not the end of an era 
It’s just the end

“The Truth in the Facts” Lyrics

Original Release: April 27, 2010

1.  Small Time
2.  Blue
3.  Happy Birthday
4.  I Took The Hard Way
5.  Maria
6.  Not Concerned
7.  When The Song is Over
8.  Understand?
9.  Who’s That?
10. Nikkie
11. You’re Not Coming Back

Small Time

I’m standing in line, nothing crossing my mind
I got dirt stains on my clothes
She’s got long brown hair and a painful stare
That rests itself on my nose

I hold my own and when I get back home
I’ll play until my strings break
They’ll call the cops, they can’t stand to watch
Another songwriter fake

Down at my job I work for a slob
Who never heard a toilet flush
but the girls are good and knock on wood
I can always make em blush

I write too much, don’t talk enough
Except when I’m telling lies
There ain’t no doubt, they’ll figure it out
But I’m never gonna tell them why

Small time living got a sickening feeling
Gotta pretend
Gotta depend
Gotta get outta here

—–

Blue

I don’t wanna know what you’ve been doing

I don’t wanna know what you’re saying to him.

I don’t wanna know why I’m no good

I don’t wanna know, I don’t wanna know.

I don’t wanna see you hanging around,

I don’t wanna hear your feet on the ground.

I don’t wanna lie about being blue

Cause I don’t wanna give that pleasure to you.

—–

Happy Birthday

Come closer my love
I don’t want you to see
What I did to our home
While you were out ignoring me

I’m sorry I broke your mirror
Threw our pictures in the trash
But if I remember accurately
This ain’t the first time its been this bad
Happy birthday baby
Don’t wanna get up and walk out on me?

You’re packing up your shit
Turned my dresser upside down
I know you’ve got another man
When asked you didn’t make a sound

So expect to hear from me
Drunk and calling you at 3 am
I hope it rains to embellish my point
That I could love you better than him

—–

I Took The Hard Way

Dug a hole with a hammer, drove in nails with a spade
When I get a little warm I search the desert for the shade
If there’s one thing I ain’t learned from no pile of books
Is that you take what you want and what I wanted I took

I took the hard way right back to the start.

Wrote a song in the shower but never brought a pen
Been counting every hour till inspiration comes again
But you gotta keep your head up, that’s what they say
Deprivation is the key desperation is the way

I took the hard way right back to the start

In the background of my head I can see it all there
50 girls throwing money, shaking champagne from their hair
Yeah, we all take the hard way right back to the start

—–

Maria

Oh Maria
You hold me like no one else

When I come home drunk, you never put me down
Just hold me closer so I don’t hit the ground

Maria
Don’t you ever let me go
For if you do I’d be the last to know

Oh Maria
hold me up to the phone
I got a job to quit and I force to be reckoned with

Don’t you see how I’m bleeding?
Don’t you see how my pain keeps me from loving you like I should?

Maria’s the only thing I got in this world
And she drinks more than I do and we never make love
Just laugh at the bruises and the lives that we ruin
Stay up all night screaming through the paper walls

Oh Maria
Don’t you see I’ve been bleeding for you?
Oh Maria
Don’t you understand what we’ve been through?

I’ll live a poor life, make it up as I go
Move from town to town to keep you on your toes

Oh Maria
I hate everything about you
Oh Maria
What the hell am I gonna do?
Let life take us where we oughta be
I’ll close my eyes and hopefully fall asleep

—–

Not Concerned

All the words would have to sum up to this

But they can’t hold a candle to your kiss.

Not concerned with morning and what it brings

Cause we’ll dance all night to the sound of the mattress

springs.

—–

When The Song Is Over

I wanted to tell you that I’m
Not capable of writing songs about you
Words escape their meaning and I can’t seem
To get a sentence through

Coming to terms with the fact that I
Could never pretend to be this for very long
I wonder if I’ve had the words inside my head
Or where they’ve gone

Gotta resort to the back hand, gotta resort to the bottle
An old source of inspiration
I don’t know if I can outlast this cold
I don’t know if I have the patience

I’m on the edge of something but I don’t know what it is
Or what I have to offer
But if the songs never come, will you hold my hand
When the dream is over

—–

Understand?

Don’t understand the little things
That make your heart so mean
Try to get a little pity but
That probably ain’t my scene

Don’t wanna spend my life with
Another absent one
And if you understand a little bit
Then nothing’s over and don’t

Do you understand?

If you just get it together
I’m spinning plates on your bedroom floor
And my chance is getting better
That I’m gonna be adding more

Saboteurs are in the middle
Ripping out wires by their hand
Break everything its just that simple
And pray they they’ll understand

Do they understand?

—–

Who’s That?

I’m a stray dog baby with three legs out
I’ve been crawling through town just spreading my doubts.
I’ve got a seed-soaked mama sitting back at the house I’ve got a half-hearted feeling I’m about to find
Who’s that?

I’ve been crying to women stationed all over town
About the one who knows how to put a man down
I gave her my heart, I gave her my ring
But when she seen my scars she said “it don’t mean a thing.”
Who’s that?

I kept my home on the road for 20 odd nights,
I avoided the bars and kept her in my sights
But when I finally got there I knew what’s been,
She’d opened her bed to all kinds of men.
Who’s that?

She’s a black heart, a thief, she’s got pain to spare.
She’s got big green eyes and long blonde hair.
If you see her train riding on your tracks,
You better head the other way and never look back.

—–

Nikkie

Oh Nikkie
You’re just another punk
Too high to notice
That that ship’s sunk

Oh Nikkie
Your heart ain’t your brain
But you make it look too easy
Cause they both think the same

Oh Nikkie
Your heart shouts a plea
To be taken care of
Responsibly

What’s in a name that makes you act this way?
Take off your clothes and you got me, yeah, you know
When does it end and how will we be
When you scream that you never loved me?

Oh Nikkie
You finally got away
From those who meant to hurt you
And tried to make you stay

Oh Nikkie
The last thing that you said
Was baby I don’t wanna
See you again

Oh Nikkie
Says she likes the pain
And she’ll make you hurt like
You’ll never hurt again

—–

You’re Not Coming Back

I wanna say an honest word for once
But I don’t know how, I’ve never said one
But I loved you even if you didn’t know
You had your reasons and those reasons made you go

I just wanna live in a great big house
Walk around by myself
Talk to the walls like they ain’t cold
Trick myself, thinking I’m not getting old

And the truth in the facts
Is you’re not coming back

I just wanna sell my guitars and such
Get enough to buy a car, not too much
Get out of town, leave my home for a while
Wish you were with me
To make me smile

Oh No! Lyrics

Original Release: January 29, 2008

1. Oh No!
2. Taking The Blame
3. I Couldn’t Help Myself
4. “Kinda Getting That Feeling…”
4. The Tinman Blues

Oh No!

I got a girl and she’s all skin and bones
I got a girl and she’s all skin and bones
I told her she better eat something but oh no
I got a girl but soon I wont

She’ll take a shot and a beer and pass the tab to me
She’ll take a shot and a beer and pass the tab to me
She’s dancing with another man. Well, at least one that I’ve seen.
She’ll take a shot and a beer and then she’ll leave

Oh girl
Oh babe
Oh no

—–

Taking The Blame

Running around with another man
That’s what you told me tonight
But I know it’s because of me
So I won’t put up a fight

See the thing about me is
I can always change
You can confess all you want
But I’m still taking the blame

You said you didn’t love me
I said it ain’t your fault
You said you feel isolated
I said I built the wall

I’d say just about anything
To get you to stay
You can confess all you want
But I’m still taking the blame

—–

I Couldn’t Help Myself

So there you lie
Right next to me
You open your eyes
Ask why I can’t sleep

So I say girl
Today’s the day
That I get the chance to finally say

I don’t love you
Although I say I do
I could not help myself
So when I leave, it’s for good. Baby, goodbye

You said you knew
I was going to go
Back to my girl
Before she knows

She pulls me tight
Said, “before your wheels roll,
Here is something that I want you to know,”

—–

The Tinman Blues

I hadn’t left yet
But they paid no mind
Some friends if you ask me
No need to apologize

So top up your drinks
Believe me, you’re gonna need them too
Cause maybe you should think
About how long it is till they leave you

So no more being children and
I wanna tell you something
I don’t care if you feel bad
You’re gonna get what coming

Sad thing about our situation
Is that while I’m writing this song,
You’re back in the city
Not giving it a second thought